Most if all, I remember...I knew there was something different about my and Matt's relationship very early on. It was just so comfortable. The lifetime type of love. Then after about a year of dating his mom passed away very suddenly, and while we were sitting in his car after her funeral he just looked at me and said, "I'm just so sad she didn't get to see us get married." That was the first time either of us vocalized what we probably both felt about our relationship from the beginning - that it was forever. And from that moment on I knew for sure. About six months later he proposed at a restaurant downtown and then he surprised me with an impromptu engagement party with all our closest friends that night.
What I remember from the wedding how nervous I was before the ceremony. I think I was literally shaking walking down the aisle. But when I got to the end and the paster started talking I put my head on my dad's shoulder, looked at Matt, and the most overwhelming sense of joy came over me. I was just so incredibly happy to be marrying this man. I remember the energy I felt walking into the reception and how my girlfriends and I danced through dinner. I remember my family dancing through the entire song of "We are Family" in a big group hug. But most of all I remember how humbling it was to see all the people that took time out of their busy lives to come and celebrate with us and just how special it felt to have all of our favorite people in the world in one room.
Six years ago I really thought that I loved Matt as much as I possibly could. But now I know now that I had no idea just how deep that love would grow. I had no idea how I would get teary eyed just thinking about one minute without him as my partner, closest ally, and center of this life we have created as the Gentles. Six years ago I also thought that having him as my husband was the greatest thing in the world, but seeing him as a father to our two sons brings me more happiness than I ever could have imagined. I am just so proud of him. And I am certain his mom is proud too.